The first day of September brings with it so many promises
of things to come: fall right around the corner, a new school semester, festivals every week-end, corn mazes, opportunities to try new soup and "cold-weather" recipes, new winter wardrobes, pumpkin pie, birthdays, and a warm blanket, hot chocolate and a really good movie. I love the fall. The changing colors of nature remind me that we all do so much changing through a year and we get the opportunity to share some of these changes with the world. It seems that my life has a tendency to get caught up in the every-day and before I know it, a year has gone by again. So I'm determined to realize some of the changes and growing that I have experienced this year. First change: I moved to a new house with two of my best friends. We lived together in our previous house but two of us decided we needed a change of address after three years. It's been a good thing for us. It seems to be easier with just three of us instead of four. It's amazing how much of a difference one less person makes. We liked our other roommate, but she wanted to stay in the ward, so we moved on. Second change: I feel more confident expressing myself to others. I've always been an introvert. To the fullest extent. I hate any type of confrontation, nice or not, so its easier to keep myself to myself. I also have a huge self-image issue. I have anxiety thinking about what others, especially strangers, think of me. I've found though that I am who I am and it doesn't matter what others may think. I'm not saying I've come completely out of a shell, that could take years, but I do think I'm more comfortable being the me that my friends get to see, in front of everyone. Third change: This change is a little more on a personal basis but I finally figured out that I don't need to be married to be happy. I've said it for years, but finally I feel like I'm at a place in my life where I get to do what I want because it's what best for me and not what's best for when I get married. I'm much happier with being single and planning my own future. You may be rolling your eyes but I feel very fortunate to have found myself now and not ten years down the road, married or not.
of things to come: fall right around the corner, a new school semester, festivals every week-end, corn mazes, opportunities to try new soup and "cold-weather" recipes, new winter wardrobes, pumpkin pie, birthdays, and a warm blanket, hot chocolate and a really good movie. I love the fall. The changing colors of nature remind me that we all do so much changing through a year and we get the opportunity to share some of these changes with the world. It seems that my life has a tendency to get caught up in the every-day and before I know it, a year has gone by again. So I'm determined to realize some of the changes and growing that I have experienced this year. First change: I moved to a new house with two of my best friends. We lived together in our previous house but two of us decided we needed a change of address after three years. It's been a good thing for us. It seems to be easier with just three of us instead of four. It's amazing how much of a difference one less person makes. We liked our other roommate, but she wanted to stay in the ward, so we moved on. Second change: I feel more confident expressing myself to others. I've always been an introvert. To the fullest extent. I hate any type of confrontation, nice or not, so its easier to keep myself to myself. I also have a huge self-image issue. I have anxiety thinking about what others, especially strangers, think of me. I've found though that I am who I am and it doesn't matter what others may think. I'm not saying I've come completely out of a shell, that could take years, but I do think I'm more comfortable being the me that my friends get to see, in front of everyone. Third change: This change is a little more on a personal basis but I finally figured out that I don't need to be married to be happy. I've said it for years, but finally I feel like I'm at a place in my life where I get to do what I want because it's what best for me and not what's best for when I get married. I'm much happier with being single and planning my own future. You may be rolling your eyes but I feel very fortunate to have found myself now and not ten years down the road, married or not.
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